the end of cwspeak..?

**warning - old post from monday, december 4, snatched from cwspeak**

hello hello?



so the story is this - i am able to access squarespace now, but since i've gotten started on blogger again and blogger is free... i'm inclined to stay with it and cancel my squarespace subscription. thoughts? blogger is actually more dependable for me and faster to use, but i do like some of the squarespace features. plus, blogger is free and squarespace is not. for those of you who read this regularly, is there any preference? i hate switching back and forth like this - it's the OCD part of me that needs to have all my entries lined up in order on one source - but as the foreigners here like to say, i hit the 'great firewall of china.' hard and fast.

other than that, just doing my thing, enjoying being single and without obligations. hehe. i've been pretty good about going to class, but not with studying this week. i feel like i'm kinda getting into a groove, socially at least, and really enjoying just living here and meeting people and exploring the boundaries of my own personality. i hung out with a friend today, which was interesting because i've been really tentative about hanging out with him, afraid of creating a situation where attachments (not mine, necessarily) could be formed. but he's moving back to austria next week so i thought, well, fuck it, we can just hang out - i always have fun with him and like him as a person. and it was cool, despite my reservations. i'm not consciously trying to cast aside my own personal precautions, but wanting to think less and do more. if there's anything i can be rightly accused of, it's overthinking. i think we covered that a few entries ago. i've always been really wary-slash-hyperconscious of situations that could potentially be date-like. but, honestly, what's bad about spending time with a person that is generally good and interesting and just proceeding on the plank of positive intent? doesn't mean i need to hook up with that person or feel obligated in any way.

one of the things about shanghai - which i've been discussing w/ alvin - is that it's so incredibly easy to meet someone on any given night. if you wanted to, every time you went out you could meet someone and go home with him/her. most of the people i know (single ones anyway) are juggling like, 2-3 potentials at any given time. i think this is a good thing, it's a great thing, but sometimes i feel like shaking myself and seeing if this is real. for me, this comes at a good time - i don't want to be serious about anyone now, i feel like taking sips of different samples is right about my speed right now. anyhoo.

Posted on Monday, December 4, 2006 at 01:54AM by